I definitely see a change in how I am responding to my H.
I have also been in contact with our counselor, who knows us better than anyone. He says, sometimes you need to step back, and sometimes you need to shake things up....it's all in the timing....and if not done right an go drastically wrong.
Using his suggestion, when H came over on Monday, we talked about minor things, I didn't bring up the photos, but I know he looked through them as my laptop was on.
At the endi asked him how he was doing, he said he was good, he asked me how I was, I said, good days, bad days, but I miss you. He said, I miss you too, but this separation had to happen. I agreed with him (which by the look n his face surprised him). He gave me a big hug, a real warm hug when he left.
He called me on the way back to where he is staying to "return my call" I hadn't called, but thanked him for it anyways. He said he enjoyed spending time with us, I told him we did as well and good night
This morning he called me to let me know he had forgotten his phone at home, just in case I tried to get ahold of him, "not that you would text me or anything". That comment sounded like he was a bit put out that I hadn't called him.
I am getting to the point where I don't cry every time I get off the phone, or plan my life around when he may come by. He is supposed to come by after work today to take our D out. I work late. I don't plan on being here, and when I am off, I am going to the library...I have homework to do.
