Looking for New Options If H Wants Divorce

[MyNewStrength]

No talking at all. I just wish he would leave me alone. My lawyer is recommending sending to him through his lawyer so that the badging would stop. However, I don't want to come off as weak and meek. So I will propose new language for the letter to the lawyer this morning.

Apparently he is moving to an apartment and he wants to have the PSA signed by then because without a PSA he cannot file for a divorce until 1 year after the separation date. He wants to be able to file in 6 months. I did not respond and don't intend to other than through my lawyer. I am not doing that to piss him off, but just to get him to stop the attacks. Until he can respect me as a human being, I do not wish to speak with him. He blame is towards me. He had an affair in 2009 and I took him back. He had an affair this year while we were still reconciling and he blames our arguing on me, not on the affair!!!

The one thing I have not said here is that I believe everything he says. He is DONE. I feel I must give up even though I don't want to but maybe it is God's way of telling me no more. I have prayed and meditated. I have been reflecting on me and what I did or didn't do to contribute to the breakdown.

He is being so incredibly forceful towards me that I am weakening. I have spent the last 12 years in this house that WE built. He does not care about me at all and that is the most difficult thing to accept.