Thanks MH. I appreciate the sweet message. It's good to know someone cares.
After I cried, really good, I got up and got dressed and went out for a loooong walk. Yes, it's nighttime here and very dark outside. I talked and babbled to myself all the way, good thing no one was out they woulda though I was cray-cray. I then sat under a pine tree and watched the stars and contemplated my life right now. It was good. But I'll tell ya if you want to get rid of how badly you are feeling, go for a walk outside when its REAALLY dark. You will end up being so spooked by shadows and and noises in the dark that your problems seem to be overcome by fear. LOL.
After I returned, everyone was in bed. I went to the kitchen to grab some advil and my H actually came out of his bedroom and said "you ok, did you go for a walk?" I said "yeah, I'm fine" (oops with a little bit of snippy in my tone), so I added real quick and very sweetly "Thank you for asking".
I'm feeling just a bit better now.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.
