I feel as if I have spent a great deal if time trying to please people who won't ever be pleased with me. All grown up and still in some ways trying to prove myself to my parents, boss and everyone else. And never getting there.
I am trying not to require others validation but it is difficult. What I miss and loved about my partner was that I felt I could be me. That he loved me for me. And accepted that I was not traditional but that it didn't matter because I was what mattered. BD destroyed all of that, I never felt so wrong.
Take your time through this journey, Nero. Changes if the soul take a long time I think. I also think that we need to accept ourselves flaws and all. That is hard for me.
