Thank you, AS, willbewell, Tori, dbmod, jp, and lovethehub!
I appreciate your posts and your thought-provoking questions.
"What is your goal?"
My goal is to find out if there has been ANY (in his head) about wanting to save our M. ANY!
He has seemed "happier" lately and friendlier...makes me suspicious if he is talking to OW again.
Where is my head?
Well, Sunday at church I broke down crying and had to leave the service...the pastor's sermon was called "How do you love?" and then a song that spoke to my heart was played and that was all it took- I was a sobbing mess! Worst break-down I've had in a long time.
I ran into a M friend outside the sanctuary (strange timing) and he just gave me a long hug and said, "Dont, worry, you are pretty, you'll find somebody else..." He really doesn't get it, but he was trying to be supportive.
So, I thought my break-down was b/c I still love H and can't let him go. Interestingly, the past 3 nights I have been "browsing" on an on-line dating site (first time I've EVER done this).
What to make of this? IDK
Still have not seen cute D friend...but we've texted a couple of times, so he's still on my radar.
Any thoughts????
M- 18 T-21 S-14,11 & 10 BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA) H moved out 11-3-2012 10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life. 11-25-13 Jointly filed.
