I was doing really well today, feeling really good. Being happy just for me. And then...

My H came home from kb and karate, I had gone down to kb earlier myself and come home before him, and I told him I had gotten a shirt for our S to have his class pics retaken. Then I told H I was going to bed as I was tired. I gave him a hug and it was again very halfhearted on his part. Then I went over to my S to say goodnight and he just grunted, I asked him what was the matter and he said angrily 'nothing'. Then I tried to hug and kiss S goodnight and he turned away just like his father does! I whispered to him don't do that. And he just kept refusing me. Damn I hate this. It's hard enough to get that from my H, but now from my S?? It seems like he is mimicking his father's behavior. Seriously??? I know I should not take it personal from a teenager but I am SO DAM TIRED of allowing them to make me feel like crap. I honestly feel like I should just move out and they BOTH would be happier. this really s$cks!!!

I'm just venting here instead of bursting into tears and showing my mood to them.

Me:49 H:47
S: 16
T:27 M:25
My EA: 2001
His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013
Separated, but H still in house

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