And I thought my roller coaster was bad. From your long history of posts you seem fairly self aware and conscious of your interactions. To me, this is growth. I know for me, before BD, I acted and reacted. I may have had a goal in mind, but I wasn't thinking in terms of my M. It has been hard to come by, but I am really aware of how I think and process my interactions with my W. I really consider everything I say in terms of how does this help me or hurt me. When I think something might hurt me (really our M), I just keep it to myself. If I can, I share it with my IC or a friend so as not to bottle it up. What is much harder is finding balance, changing to be better while still allowing me to be me when appropriate. In some ways, it is like discovering the person you want to be.
