I decided to not respond to W. About 5 hours later, she sent just "????". I decided not to respond again. I also am going to take S5 and D10 to the YMCA pool on Wednesday so I can just drop them off and not see W - that way I don't have to decide how to act at this point.
Interestingly enough, I had a great night - ate dinner with a friend, and went over to another friends house to watch some Monday Night Football. My one friend told me several people pointed out that they noticed I had lost weight, and was funny, relaxed, and just enjoyed hanging around with me. The guy that hosted our Friday night get-together even told my friend "YES! JonF is coming!"
In talking with several people, it was my first realization that everyone around me has given up on W. I'm not a doormat. On the contrary, I could walk away right now and everyone that knows us would know it was her - including her entire family that she now shuns. I could look like the loving devoted hero that stood with a horrible woman.
But I won't be that guy. Even if she pushes me into D, I will be the one that stood for her, fought for her, and never quit on her.
I'm glad I'm here. I'm not angry anymore, I'm not really expecting any changes from her, I'm doing this for ME, so that I can look back with honor, dignity, and knowing I did the right thing no matter what.
