i was thinking about maybe stalking or something. psyche eval is good too. i tried to delete his FB account tonight. password is changed. he doesnt deserve this. he is such a good boy and follows the rules. he likes posting stuff for his family to see. and she ruins it. and then blames me.
my heart hurts. ive been sad all day. i actually cried a little bit on my run tonight. it is not cool. i dont cry. ever. the worst part is, i have no idea where this came from. totally blindsided. i feel like i just got checked from behind and my head slammed into the boards. in fact i would rather have that happen. then only my body hurts. that i can deal with.
i do want my kids to think of her as a good mom. they deserve that. they have an addict/alcoholic for a dad. the least they deserve is a good mom. all i know is that one day i will be able to save them. might not be today or tomorrow. one day i will. i am a warrior. i always have been. i dont know the meaning of quit. ive always been on the small side. my coaches loved me because i played bigger than everyone. i have heart. and that is about all i have most days. the unwillingness to give up.
thank you for your kind words. congrats on the new kuerig. i think it looks nice on the microwave. makes total sense to me
