Acceptance...

[Live4myDay]

Well to give you all an update: Had a second date last Saturday. Very nice and felt comfortable. He makes me feel important to him and we have great conversations!

He is also a pretty good kisser and things seem to move a little to fast for me...I had to back off. Got really freaked out about moving any further. I just felt uneasy like I was cheating. Ridiculous I know!

I'm divorced. I'm an adult. I can handle a mature relationship but not on the second date. We talked about it and I think I scared him too. We're going to move a lot slower starting out as dating only. "My" way of dating. Maybe a little old fashioned in this day and age, but I take intimacy very personal and after 25 years with the same man I'm not going to just give it away.

Another kink in the story is I may be moving possibly by the end of November...could be even sooner. Not just moving down the street...moving 2-1/2 hours away.

We talked about that too. I just don't want to complicate his life and get all involved and then I up and move.

So maybe I'm just not ready for all this. It was nice to feel appreciated and even made me feel wanted. Had a lot of feelings I hadn't had in a LONG time.

But, if I walked away tomorrow, I would be ok with it. I realize I still have a lot of trust issues. Trust as in is he telling me I'm gorgeous because he means it or does he just want a nice date to come home from. It's real hard to take a compliment.

Well this is like my 3rd person to go out on date with. This guy a little more serious than the other meetups. I'm getting my feet wet and putting myself out there.

I told my S about my date and he said "then why are you dating?" and I told him to get over his dad and that I have to meet people and move on.

I am feeling a lot more confident as a divorced single woman. Acceptance of the situation is key and I've controlled my thoughts on X and his OW pretty good lately. Making peace with myself and the situation. Nothing "I" can do to the sitch.

Accept and move on. I have a great wonderful life!!