I decided to stay in newcomers as I am still struggling with many of the emotions that most of the rest of you are and my old thread was getting large.
As I mentioned in my last thread I was commenting on how my H was spending most of his time nights and weekends at home and then BAMMO! he decided to go 'watch a football game in a sportsbar', at least that was his lie. He didn't return until 11 last night, game was over at 5:30.
I so wanted to run downstairs and say why did you even bother coming home? But I thought of all my db buddies and I refrained, hard as it was.
Then this morning, I didn't go downstairs like I usually do when he and my S are getting ready for work/school. After my S left, my H came upstairs to find me (small positive) and mentioned something about our dog being slightly ill and I just could not look him in the face. I just commented one word syllables and then when he said Ok, have a good day. I just said Yup. I just felt I couldn't say anything of great length or my emotions would come flying out. Not the best way to handle it but it worked as I reminded myself before I spoke. (kinda a 180)
It's hard to detach in my house as it is a small condo and there is not really much other place to go than my bedroom. I posed this question on my last thread that it seems like detaching like this is kind of more of the same behavior from me as during my depressive state that's what I did. So I think I will have to find things to do outside the house instead of being at home. But then I worry about my S and making him feel left out.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
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