Just so defeated today, I have no idea what to do. I've just resorted back to crying in the corner of my apartment, and I have no idea what I've gotten myself into. I haven't found a job yet, I don't have money to get a lawyer to file some kind of spousal support. I have no savings. My H used them all excessively, and now he's somewhere else. Furthermore, my H has an urge to file for divorce right this second when he keeps swaying back and forth on whether or not he wants one in the first place. Today he finally asked that I sign a dissolution agreement, and not contest the assets. I'm one of the few candidates that would probably qualify for spousal support, but on the other hand I don't want to really sign off on a dissolution right now. I don't know if I want divorce, and I don't feel like I can make a sound decision on it right now. When I told him this he told me to go f**k myself, and go to h*ll. And lots of other bad things. I was absolutely horrified. I have never seen my H act this way before. I am beyond shocked. I have no idea what kind of monster he's become, and how we're supposed to reconcile from this. And he's mentioned he has seeked other options, I think in terms of dating. Not sure though. Maybe he's dating someone and has grown to hate me. He also keeps mentioning that the fight that led to our divorce 4 months ago is unforgivable. It was a fight about his citizenship, not infidelity, honestly, I think it's just the straw that broke the camel's back. I have no idea what to do at this point. I'm so emotionally defeated. Should I just give him the divorce. He sounds like he absolutely hates me. I don't want to force him to stay married to me. I'm just so lost right now.
