There is not more kindness no more love no anything left for me. Here is the email I received today... It is over.... cry
There is hope until YOU decide not to hold it in your heart anymore. It is YOUR choice to hope or not hope. WASs ALWAYS speak in absolutes, there is nothing unusual about him telling you he is done. There's a WAW lady that used to post here named Mandy that sat down and told her S'd H to quit waiting and move on because she was definitely NEVER going back to him. Her H did move on and shortly after Mandy started missing him and reaching out to him and wanting to work on the M again. The WAW became the LBS. She changed her mind, and your H can too. He already has several times before, so in your case there's a precedence.
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Life is over.
You had a life before your H, you didn't meet him until you were 30, right? Was it a bad life? I imagine not, I imagine you were strong, independent, self-sufficient, and happy! Those are probably the things that attracted your H to you to begin with. So why do you think now that you cannot have a life without your H? You did before and you can again. How do I know? Because I am LIVING PROOF. Not only have I survived BS and S and lead-up to D, but I am happier and more content than I've been in years, since well before BD. And you will be too, you just have to be patient.
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This is so hard. And I cannot do this - there are no answers to why. I give up.
You CAN do this. These feelings you are experiencing are very strong, but they are TEMPORARY!
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Thank you, but everyday I cry, everyday I hurt and there is nothing but overwhelming emotion.
Go see your PCP and get evaluated for depression. It's normal in our sitches to feel pain and to cry, but if you tip to the extreme, and especially if you're considering suicide, then it's not normal and you need medical intervention.
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The left behind party has no recourse, no help.
The LBS has complete and total control over their life, but it takes a while after BD to realize the truth in that statement.
