better to love or be loved?

[willbwell]

Barb, thank you for your reply. I do know that there is good in store for me. I do trust in God's plan. I am a spiritual person. I know the gifts that my h has given to me.
I was in a so bad place yesterday. I am much better today. I do thought stop. It creeps in so frequently, but I know I should not give it space.
I am taking classes and that has been so helpful( medical assisting). For the most part, I am doing ok. There are episodes of feeling overwhelmed. But, these pass. My children are a gift. I know how lucky I am.