Just had quick read of your letter. iirc your W was thinking that xmas was going to be spent together??? If this is the case and your looking for a completely different path (which I understand). Sending an email as wordy as this one might not be the best course. If she is going to spew lava, the majority of the message will go unread and your reasonings and justifications ignored. It comes across as a lot of convincing.
I'm not saying don't send it. I'm just pointing out what I see.
Any thoughts about if she says no I want them xmas day?
M36 W31 S4 S2 T5 M4 BD Jan12 S July12 Recon Sep12-Nov12 ILBINILWY Jan13 OM x 2 in 2013 W wants R July 13 I start D. Jan 14. Meet GF Nov 13 Have I changed enough? Jul 14