Portia - good for you, on all fronts! I absolutely agree about all you said regarding post bomb feelings. I too tried to push myself and ended up feeling like a failure. I started reading gardening books again, until I could think about actually gardening. As for feeling as if I were sitting underwater, or behind a glass screen, oh yes, And I thought I might feel that way forever - which I know can see is a sign of depression. If you believe that nothing will ever change it is a sign of lost hope, and I think that is what happens to us.

Your XSO is definitely peeking out of his bunny burrow - it is fascinating how they cannot seem to leave us alone.