Yes, it appears that I am making all the men in my life sweat a little these days. Car negotiations are moving along. But just like this MLC business, glad I don't have to do this very frequently.
Nero, I know exactly how you felt. It took some time for me to start enjoying the things I once loved again. Being around people was especially difficult. Good friends were understanding but being those whom I did not tell or weren't sympathetic was exhausting. I'd be in a room full of people and feel like I was listening to conversations under water.
I am a pretty strong willed person but I found that the more I pushed myself to feel better, I ended up feeling worse because it felt like I was failing. So I stopped pushing and instead took very small steps. For example, I love to travel. So I grabbed a coffee at my favourite bookstore on an evening I was feeling low and plunked myself down in the travel section. I came away with a glimmer of a renewed interest again. Every time I felt low, that is what I did. Two weeks ago I came home with several travel magazines. I realized I had not bought any for a very long time.
I also found it really nice to have some time I could completely call my own. I know exactly what it is like to have family members fighting, etc.
Nero, I don't know if my method would work for you, everyone has their own way. I found that GALing and finding something new did not work for me, especially with all the family issues going on at the same time but bringing back to life something I loved, did.
And speaking of dangling men. I did respond to his message asking if I was enjoying my car and said that the car was not here yet. I didn't give anything else about my life away. Couple of hours later and he texted back saying he couldn't wait to see it. Do you know, I am still so surprised to get his texts? We were out of contact so long.
But I am comfortable where I am. It's me who wants the time and space now.
