Thanks adinva for the 4x4. I was reading my threads from the first time I got a divorce and was comparing to it to my threads today - big difference. The first time I fought for my marriage and stuck with the program. This second time I've been so negative and depress to the point that I cannot function at times. I've been living by sight and not walking by faith.
The first time I made it about my wife - about filling her love tank, meeting her needs. I've been so selfish this second round that it is no wonder why I am losing this battle. I need to shake myself up and get back to this.
I know the next several days are going to be testing me. She will be distant, cold and at times rude due to the way I treated her this past weekend. I should expect this and plan on how I will act (not react). I need to give her the space she needs, no begging, texting, calling, etc. Just let her have her space while staying positive and focusing my attention on my daughter to keep me busy.
