thought of you all last evening saying waves of grief make you cry - stop- go on - cry , etc.
me too- but it's more nausea. think i'll throw up- have minute panic attack- push it back & away - go forward.
idk- it's a wonderful morning- i'm going outside & block this junk from mind (what else - i spend a huge amount of my life blocking out my mind and just being busy_) oh well huh
maybe i'll go walk over for a really good bagel- need to finish vacuuming & so on -
i know- icky isn't it to keep so busy with "chores" - i think i do it because this mlc has taken away my pleasure and ability to paint or be creative (tho it's slowly returning) i can feel it now or then- re-interest in life, crafts, art, garden, etc.
as usual huh? onward & upward. i honestly hate feeling nausea & panic so i'm relating to your wave of grief- hope your day is good
