Thanks for all the words of support. For me, my wife still holds domain over my heart and I am not ready to give up on us. In our 13 years together, I have not once wanted to be with someone else or thought I could do better than her. Because of her, I see people as packages, not parts. There will always be someone younger, prettier, nicer than any of us, but what is the total package?
I only wish my wife felt the same way. She seems to think that she could never be happy with me, but thinks someday there might be someone she could be happy with. I know what you are going to say, don't believe anything she says. It is so difficult to function without open and honest information.
It is hard enough to fight our relationship instincts or to keep our suffering hidden, but to have to explain to everyone else our choice just adds to the difficulties we face.
