I like the quote you made NQ K, you're doing so well from when you first came on here, here's hoping you keep it up I wish I could afford some new clothes at the mo. I'm going to have to hunt around for something decent to wear when my mum comes over to stay, lol.
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
I so agree with you about the texting I need to stop answering H texting as soon as I get them too. I need to let his text go for a bit before I answer them but so far most of The texting between myself and H. He texts first then I respond back. And The only time i do text him first now is only if it has to do with my boys. Other then that I don't text him at all. And I will keep getting on with the GAL and PMA. Because I still don't know for sure if we will get back together or not. I will keep holding onto that hope but if not I'm able to move on and keep living for myself and my boys.
M:42 H:37 M:14yrs S:13; S:9 Found out PA:8/2012 2nd PA & still w/OW:4/2013 H asked for D:6/2013 H moved out: 8/2013 H & OW moved in together: 8/2013
Thank you and I know what you mean about affording new clothes now a days its so expensive. I should have an extra paycheck in November so I should be able to get few new outfits for myself for work and for play. Have a fun and enjoyable weekend
M:42 H:37 M:14yrs S:13; S:9 Found out PA:8/2012 2nd PA & still w/OW:4/2013 H asked for D:6/2013 H moved out: 8/2013 H & OW moved in together: 8/2013
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
K, I had a really hard time with responding to texts at first. I failed the 48 hr rule - it was more like 48 seconds, or 48 minutes, tops. LOL
One of the things old-timers always talk about is when you get to that point where you can really imagine being ok if the M doesn't work out. I know I paid lip service to the idea, but for a long time I was still letting my mood be set by the slightest response from W.
Good job on the PMA and GAL. But hope is a good thing, too!
It really is a wonderful feeling to grow in strength every day from the things you are doing for yourself.
As for new clothes... I bought a couple of shirts during the real "DB diet" phase. I think I lost more than 25 pounds. Now, when W and I get together, it usually involves eating or sitting in a movie theater or watching TV... so those shirts are already getting a bit snug. <sigh> I'm *always* between sizes, too!
Milehigh- I know what you are saying there about The waiting part of texting back Im going to see what will happen by turning down the sound of the text message nitice so that I won't hear my text message notice. Then that way I can keep the H waiting to hear back from me. I want him to think that I'm really Bessy and not doing or being in my regular routine that I always do when we live together. So that will be my test tomorrow since he gas been texting me of lately. I just don't want to get my hopes up to high in case he has a change of heart about wanting to come back to our family. Because I can't and will not go through all the hurt again it was way to much for me to ho through especially when I don't have my family close by. I know I have my MIL and she is my family but she is not my blood family. If that makes any since?
M:42 H:37 M:14yrs S:13; S:9 Found out PA:8/2012 2nd PA & still w/OW:4/2013 H asked for D:6/2013 H moved out: 8/2013 H & OW moved in together: 8/2013
I get ya. It's hard being far from family. This is my second go-around on the DB ride. The first time I confided too much with FIL. Caused all kinds of problems between W and myself and W and FIL. This time I've learned to be very careful in what I share with anyone.
I wish I could do that with my phone. Unfortunately, I have to use it for work so I have to check any text right away, at least when I'm on-call.
Will its one of those nights I can't sleep once again and this time my mind is racing I just so wish my mind would just relax and shut off so that I can get some sleep I'm going to go watch a little TV and see if that will help.
M:42 H:37 M:14yrs S:13; S:9 Found out PA:8/2012 2nd PA & still w/OW:4/2013 H asked for D:6/2013 H moved out: 8/2013 H & OW moved in together: 8/2013
I've not got any family near me as well, so I know how hard it is. I can't really have a normal conversation with my mum and dad as I don't like to hear them bad mouthing H and there's nothing they can do anyway! That's why I needed the support of my MIL, but I can't trust her even though she was more like my mum than my own mum. Sorry to hear you're not sleeping again I've just read in my book that if you can't sleep, get up after 15 mins and whatever is on your mind to go and do it! So if it's a pile of laundry that's bothering you or paperwork or something else then start on that. When you feel tired again then go back to bed. You will soon condition your brain and your body to thinking more about sleep and not getting up to do jobs. Don't watch TV or that will stimulate your brain and make it harder for you to relax
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
180 the thing that was on my mind is if H is really wanting to come home and I know I can't believe anything he says or do at this time I just want him to come home what I'm fighting with my mind is telling it to stop thinking that he is coming home and start living as its over between us until it actually happens. And if he does come home we have lots of work to do to make sure we don't head down this path again because I can't and won't go down this path again. Ok enough of that I have a big surprise for my boys tonight they don't know that I'm going to take them to the drive in to watch a movie. So its going to be a big surprise to them I can't wait
M:42 H:37 M:14yrs S:13; S:9 Found out PA:8/2012 2nd PA & still w/OW:4/2013 H asked for D:6/2013 H moved out: 8/2013 H & OW moved in together: 8/2013
K, you're doing so well from when you first came on here, here's hoping you keep it up 
I've just read in my book that if you can't sleep, get up after 15 mins and whatever is on your mind to go and do it! So if it's a pile of laundry that's bothering you or paperwork or something else then start on that. When you feel tired again then go back to bed. You will soon condition your brain and your body to thinking more about sleep and not getting up to do jobs. Don't watch TV or that will stimulate your brain and make it harder for you to relax