If my comment made you feel in any way that it was all your fault I definitely didn't get it to come out right. Your H, however, does think it is all your fault right now. I know I thought it was all my H's fault and from what everyone on here says, that is what most WAS's think. They also say they rewrite the whole R and there weren't any happy times.
In time he will most likely realize it isn't all your fault and be able to see your M for what it was and his role in it.
Keep following DB and figure out what you would like to change about yourself, what your role was in the M and which parts were damaging, etc.
M 46 H 44 D 12 S 8 M 9 T 11 BD 2/15/13 "Makes sense to stay together" 5/12/13 Agree we are 'healing' 7/13 Definitely Piecing 9/13