Am I doing the right thing? I know DB/DR is counter intuitive. With the divorce filed, I have stopped initiating any contact. I'm not going dark, I have to work with my wife, but I do wait for her to come to me or initiate. When she does, I respond like a friend, positive and light. I do not bring up our R as much as I yearn to talk about things. She does initiate from time to time, but it is always about work. Nothing essential to our jobs, more like gossip and FYI. She has called once to talk about R. She gas stopped by the house with the intention of talking about R, only to keep the conversation about work.
I am not blocking the D process, but I told my attorney I did not want to find out how efficient the legal system could be. I hope that time and the consequences of D might at least bring about the conversations we should have been having. I want to believe we still share some connection that has not been completely forgotten. I am working on not having any expectations, but it feels like a very lonely place.
