Good to hear a positive take on your sitch AS I was starting to feel a little disheartened by what you said. I suppose though after a year you will feel like it's water under the bridge. Sorry to hijack your thread 2old, I just wanted to clarify this
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
When my H is saying crazy, confusing things it will forever pop into my head "the pope needs his pajamas" and this will seriously derail me from going emotional in the moment!
So I thank you for that.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.
lol PM, I like that I've also got a mantra that I use whenever I feel like ring or texting H. I always say what's the point, he never answers his phone anyway. The moments has then past and I don't want to text or phone him. When I do need to text him, I always make sure it's early in the morning when I know I've (A) Given him plenty of time to answer his text, (B) He will probably have his phone with him at that time and (C) He's probably still in bed asleep and I've woken him up mwahahaha
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
So for observation purposes for others who may feel like I do, I had a down emotions day. For the most part of the past 6 weeks or so I have been PMA. But, for some reason out of nowhere sadness came upon me today. This is 5 months later and I felt terrible about my sitch.
I feel better at now though. Took a long walk kicked a rock and hurt my foot pretty good. Good news is I can still walk on it. I simply am surprised how this day's feelings seem to come out of nowhere and crept up on me. Got to find a way to avoid this if/when it happens again...It's funny how my girls (our 2 dogs) seemed to be all over me today. They sense things I believe....
Anyway's, it's all good again....till the next time? nahhhhh
That happens to me sometimes, I can get down for no reason at all. I've had a bit of a down day as well coincidently and at one point I actually felt like crying. Have you been to the doctors yet about getting something for your depression or do you not feel it is depression? I'm thinking of going back to my doctors to get my pills upped. I nearly always start to feel down towards the end of the day and I feel like I need a pick me up Hope your foot is better soon
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
There's a book I'm reading at the mo called how to change your life and everyone in it. It's full of great ideas and is by MWD who wrote the divorce busting books. MH on here recommended it to me and I think it is just what you need at the mo
H47 me48 T22 M21 S20 - Got high functioning autism 3/2000 H admits to OW and moves out to live with her 11/2000 H moves back home 2/4/13 H moves out H tells me he wants D 6/13, but now he can't afford to!
hang in there 2old. someone before said its like a wave of emotion sweeps over you. It comes out of nowhere. It can knock my breath out at times. I am learning though to have my cry( I am a year+ from BD)then I ask God for strength and courage. It works for me. I get up and proceed on. It will not lay me flat. I too want those answers... for me, that part is hard to come to grips with and I see my h a couple of times a week.
M48 H50 M21 T26 S20 at college),S17,D15-cp, dev. delay- cogniv 5yrs old PA confirmed 7/2012 H separates 9/2012 H move home 2/13& 7/13 lasted 2weeks.ILYNILWY OW still in picture. h filed 10/13
Those down days are normal. Goal is to just ride it out and not do anything stupid. For the record I don't consider kicking a rock stupid but some may tell you I'm not the brightest bulb on the boards .
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are
Spartan, yes kickin a rock is kind of stupid...lol.. It was a big damn rock.... All's good though. I just got hit out of nowhere with the emotions and didnt understand. As Willbill said strength and courage. Which by the way 2 months ago while leaving church they were handing out coffee mugs with just that theme on them.
As far as not being the brightest bulb there Spartan, well, just add a few extra watts..ha....I,ve really been strong of late as I stated in yesterdays thread and now I'm looking at possibly moving back to Tennessee where we lived for 6 years. A friend of mine has a solid lead for me for a govt job...I like the knoxville area alot and time I do something for me...
Should know next week....Back to the smoky mountains...yea...
I was starting to feel a little disheartened by what you said. I suppose though after a year you will feel like it's water under the bridge. Sorry to hijack your thread 2old, I just wanted to clarify this 