This is too far for me...it has done nothing. Every year, hour, second that passes does nothing to secure a future or make me feel loved and secure. I don't like feeling defeated but MLC is defeating me. I'm starting to cry again just because I feel so helpless/hopeless.
Let's get one thing straight here and now: your H will not be out of your life. That started with the promise of "I do". Look around the boards, m'dear. You'll see people 10-15-20 years later are still dealing with the ex's. My aunt and uncle are a good example of that as well as many others I know outside of this board.
So. Now that you know you won't get rid of him, can I ask you something? This loneliness? What's that about and why on earth do you need somebody else to fill that? I mean, I get you miss the affection, s*x, lovingness, etc, but what is it that really scares you here?
I don't think a separation is a good idea. I think you figuring out your fears and facing them is. He's going to do what he does regardless of your steps and actions. He'll do it until he's done. But as for you, you have some things to address, no?
Peace,
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
