I know the work for the LBS will never stop.. we can all keep learning and growing in life. and I plan on doing just that. But me sitting at home waiting for someone that may or may not ever come just doesn't make as much sense to me as it did 9 or 10 months ago. If I were getting any signs of hope I would still wait. I have no problem with doing that. But from what I can tell she is still very deep in Replay.... with no end in sight.
If I were to move on at this point, almost a year after BD... I don't know. My life is going really good at moment... except one thing... and that is that I am still in love with my W. I truly still love her. But I don't think that will ever change. I won't love her much less than I do at this point. maybe she can still feel that I am hanging on?
I feel like I am about 85% detached from the situation.. when I hear about her it doesn't bother or shock me near as much as it did.. I now look forward to doing things in my life.. I took a week in August and went with a friend on our Harley's and just drove.. had a blast.. months before that I would have never done it... I would have been to depressed or would have been worried about doing something like that without her.
M-39 W-41 T-9yrs BD-Dec 2012 “regardless of your choices and the fact that they may have caused me to experience painful emotions, I still love you because I recognize the purpose of our journey.”
