I love my W very much.. probably always will.. but I am starting to wonder how much I have left in the tank at this point.
I haven't been at this as long as you have, but I can totally relate. W and I have kids together, so it's different in our scenario. I'm not sure I could make this much beyond a year, so you're doing great! If you were to move on, what would that look like? Ironically, that's what might bring your W back toward you. If she knows you're hanging on for her that likely makes her keep her distance. It's all such a paradox...
I'm no vet so take whatever I say with a grain of salt!!
ETC
"Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy