How does the LBS keep hanging on with almost little or no hope from the WAS after a year of this? what can I do to get more strength to keep me from giving up??
Quick update...
Well it's been awhile since I have posted.. and I am coming up on what I consider a year of the "beginning of the end" which led to the bomb drop... I still come on this site daily for strength. I don't hear from W very often at all. it was about a month and a half of no contact until I had to write her about some mail at the house.. she texted back about 5 days after I initially sent her a txt.. saying thank you for the mail and then we txted back and forth small stuff for the day and that was it... although very nice to hear from her... it was still cold and distant..
I know she is still with the OM.. according to her family he is there most of the time.. but not every night. None of them like him at all... They all believe she is in a MLC... the W is having major problems with her D (from a previous relationship) because of the OM. So nothing really new.... seems like everything that typically happens during a MLC is happening with W.... parties all the time.. the 25yr old OM.... distancing from her D.. changes in body and attitude.. you name it..
I know for a true full blown MLC a year is really just the beginning... but my patience for this type of abuse is wearing very thin... I have been doing a ton of work on myself as far as my 180's and getting a life. I have had many days where I have sat and cried as I was owning up to my faults in the relationship.. Even thou not one of them would justify her actions.. but I did play a part in it. I am in the best shape of my life.. and actually get asked out or flirted with more than I ever have before. I have not acted on any of this yet because I know how strong my feelings are for my W that I would just end up hurting anyone I got involved with...
I love my W very much.. probably always will.. but I am starting to wonder how much I have left in the tank at this point.
M-39 W-41 T-9yrs BD-Dec 2012 “regardless of your choices and the fact that they may have caused me to experience painful emotions, I still love you because I recognize the purpose of our journey.”
