Why justify, as you said it is what it is. Often we think we need to justify or defend but we don't. Our decisions are our decisions. You're also right that many times the justification sounds preachy and judgmental.
Don't ask the question if you don't want to have the discussion and jump back on the roller coaster.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss