So here's a twist. My last R ended back in late April with Marianne. At that time she wanted to continue contact with me in a friendship capacity and I declined simply because I had very strong romantic feelings for her and could not see me transitioning to a platonic friendship with her at that time.
Well within the last week or so we have gotten back in touch with each other. I initiated it when I saw an advertisement that Pink (her favorite artist) was going to be on the Ellen Degeneres show. I sent her a short email letting her know that and hoping all was well with her. We communicated back and forth and she brought up tht fact that she thought of me often and her offer of friendship was still on the table. So I am taking her up on it and we are getting together for dinner tonight. It will be very nice to see her and she says she is excited to see me as well.
Here's the deal. Even though I fully intend to keep my interaction with her on a friendship level, I know I would be ecstatic if she changed her mind and decided to give us a try again. Our break-up wasn't due to any huge issue, she just thought I was too nice and accomodating. After a few months of self-evaluation, I finally get what she was talking about and I have made some adjustments, for me and am better for it. As a result I think she will see a somewhat different me. However, unless she brings any of this up, I am keeping my mouth shut about all of it and just see where this road leads us. If it truly just remains a friendship that will be fine because she really is someone who I have missed just talking to and keeping in touch with. If it ends up being something more, well that would be better than ok.
