My very first? LOL! Seems like such a long time ago. H and I are cautiously rebuilding a relationship. Where it goes is still up for debate at this point. His head says back together, but he wants to make sure it is what his heart wants. I want him to be sure it's what his heart wants too!!
WE are still separated, but just spent a successful week on vacay. I have stood through two girlfriends of his and dated a couple times myself. So we will see. I feel as though I am calling the shots as far as to how I proceed in this, not my H anymore.
My GAL and 180s were instrumental in allowing communication with H to start again. He was envious of my calm and insight. He wondered how I was happy and he wasn't. Then he began to comment that maybe it wasn't all my fault after all.
I took up long distance running (I hate running) and completed three 1/2 marathons since April. I learned to surf (kind of), went out with friends, took classes.
I stopped trying to control everything and let stuff go. Became grateful for everything I had and learned to live in the now.
My mantra has always been "regardless of whether are together or not, I will be exactly in the same place on my path"
But it has taken a year to get good with exactly where I am
