You are correct about that time perception, feels like forever while in the midst of it all.
I sometimes think that once she decides, it'll move much faster, she's historically been an "all or nothing" type, so...getting to that decision point is the trick...hope she gets there before I do, lol.
That said, things are pretty much...
Status = quo
Some small things here and there. Watching to see if some important steps are followed through on...action. Have to remind myself to look for those things, keep perspective. Keeping detached, which is a process flux-state I keep discovering...not a steady state. Every now and then I realize/discover that I do have some attachment threads still there, lol. At least they are not ropes anymore.
Myself, I am on a cleaning/organizing spree, and taking care of some long held-off projects that I chose to put off during the past two years for the sake of DB-ing the R, to show I can hold back and wait on things if need be. I waited, with no moping, hissy-fits or resentment. It is time to put some things in order. The funding is coming from a non-marital source and will benefit others in the house, including W coming up as winter arrives, and it is what I would do if she were gone.
I am immersed in studying and architecting for the new business expansion, I'm not going to let anything interfere with this opportunity...too important to the future for myself and the kids, and W if she sticks around.
Still biking most days to work, still sticking to my schedule and goals with working out and diet almost religiously.
Still feeling my way through a balance in the kitchen, grocery shopping area...and she is feeling her way too...I see her trying to get back to "normal", and making some progress there. Eventually I will have to ask her to have a talk about that, but now is not that time. With her added income it is less pressing, there is some flexibility now. So it can wait.
And so it goes...
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
