W text me last night asking if I had any restaurant vouchers for the vacation she is going on at Christmas that she could buy off me.
At first I was angry because she might as well be rubbing my face in it that she is going away with kids and possibly OM2 and at xmas. Then I thought that it was a strange thing to ask me. She could have looked on the internet or literally asked anyone else in the world. Then I thought that maybe it's more about the fact that she is asking me stupid questions and maybe reminding me on purpose.
Again, I don't know. I thought about for about 20 seconds and simply replied that I don't and went on with my day. I find it helps when I think about how I felt before the text and where I stood. I then act from that place.
The estate agents phoned me up today to say they had a viewer for the house. It dawned on me that even if I wanted to sell it right now I can't because of W's Matrimonial Home Rights. Off the market the house comes then.
Something I have noticed lately that is very random about mind-reading. I'm watching the last season of 'Dexter' right now. The main character (Dexter) will see something, completely mind-read how it got there or the reason why, narrate that to the audience and it becomes fact and part of the story. My eyes have never rolled so much!
Keep it up. This is so good to read!
It's all in attitude and perception. You CAN do this!
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
