Acceptance...

[Live4myDay]

Ok so Date Nite Update. I had a wonderful time. I went with no expectations. We had talked on phone so I did feel very comfortable with him. I was nervous meeting him and his expectations of me...you know "great picture but then you see the total package"

I really think I could start a relationship with him. I have met 2 other men and just didn't really connect, but this guy was different. I really liked him and felt completely comfortable. We talked and laughed all night and have a lot in common especially in regards to family and how we were raised.

We are meeting again this Friday, but we had hoped to see each other sooner. Neither of us could work something out.

So I've been thinking...is this moving on dropping the rope so to speak? Am I giving in? Now that I date someone it's ok that the kids dad is with his GF? What if I start R and X turns around...now I have someone else in the picture and I don't want to possibly hurt them either.

I've been saying a lot of prayers over this confusion. I mean seriously, do I even get involved? What is the path God wants for me? I know to be happy. But my commitment with my vows? I mean X was the one who left and I should be free, but emotionally to truly be free...will I always hope X will come back?

What is it that God truly wants of me?

Thought provoking questions...