Hey everyone...it's been quite a while since I've posted. There's been a lot of personal stuff going on w/ my mom's health but hopefully we have her on the right track.

I know not to trust what people tell me but I can't help sharing. I found out a couple of things yesterday when I was out for a walk w/ my SIL. H had brought up Big D with her the other day and she told him that his actions don't match is words. He didn't understand, she told him that he says one thing and his actions say something else...that he's giving me mixed signals. When she clarified, he huffed and walked away.

She also told me about walking in on a conversation last week that he was having with a buddy. She overheard him say "She wants nothing to do with me while I'm still married." As I said, I know not to trust too much what SIL is telling me, but I can't help get excited with the fact that OW seems to have put the breaks on with him. I don't see the Big D happening anytime soon because he still can't save money to pay for filing and other costs. So, that makes me hopeful that he'll come out of his dark cloud.

He keeps mentioning that he's sick of being depressed and angry. I'm glad that he can acknowledge it to me, but I wish he'd see the light and get assistance. But, he doesn't need it. SMH

My GAL is going well. I've been invited to go to LA for an acting conference. I've just got to muster up the cash to pay for it. When I mentioned that I was invited, he asked why. (I only brought it up because I'm going to do a FB fundraiser campaign and our mutual friends will say something to him.) When he asked why, I told him that it was something I wanted to do and that they thought I was good enough to go. He reiterated that it was a pipe dream and I told him I wanted to do it because acting is something that makes me happy.

He actually turned it around for his benefit. He said that last year when he went to do something that made him happy, I had a nervous breakdown. I told him it wasn't the same thing. I don't understand how he can compare asking for Big D versus going to LA for an acting convention.

Argh!

Me39 H35 M8 T14
Early 5/12 H FB post re: his love for me.
End 5/12 H done trying, writes "Dear John" letter
6/12 Wants D, calls ATTY, no file
1/13 Loves me, wants to try, moves home
3/13 Changes mind