Ok, so I'm trying to understand. Fact is though I never got the ILYBINILWU speech. I never got any speech. I never even got an email explaining anything from her. What I did get was no signs of anything about to happen. This is where it is a struggle.
Do you feel you could have closure if she gave you an explanation?
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!