All very good questions Mach 1. Yes Cadet, I still struggle with using logic or lack there of from a WAS. TTD, I am maintaining a positive attitude regardless of what i may of projected in my earlier statement. It is however, only human to feel and/or react to what is occurring in the moment. Time and time again we see this here on this board.
With that said, for a few weeks now I have been putting forth plans etc. to move forward with this "as if" I will be doing it without my W. "As if" she will indeed file for a D. I understand what I must do to survive and that is to swim with head above water instead of drowning.
The down feelings still hit us all especially in these early days of our sitchs'. But without the downs the ups would never come. SO we use our up days to go forward and as the up days become more and more frequent we use them to get stronger and stronger "to become the person only a fool would leave."
Now, as I go forward and YES, I am moving forward todays rare contact from my WAS was a down or a bummer if I may say. Which set me off once again to the one thing that has me so damn frustrated as I've stated a few times. The lack of a talk. I lived the days and months prior to her leaving for the visit to her sons. I know how we were from our usual coffee to breakfast to lunch at Red Robin where she as always grabbed my hand and said a blessing over our burgers. The was NO obvious indication of what was about to happen.
To close this out, my point is her email today was not necessary unless she is as I stated earlier, Preparing to file since her residency requirement will be met on 10/01. There can be no other reason to reach out since she hardly ever does. It is obvious what that email means and I was just reaching out here in DB....
