Hi 2ndtime and AnotherStander, thank you both for your advices. I really appreciate it.
Since I don't agree divorce or seperation at this time, my H kind of agrees to go to see MC for a while before discuss D/S again. I searched some marriage counselors online, some takes insurance but some not. I'm in USA. Have any of you know how to find a good marriage counselor? and which one is supposed to better, the one taking insurance or the one not take insurance?

Thanks again!

M 18 yrs
5 & 7 yrs old kids
H DB in 4/2013
H moved out in 11/2013