Sorry to hear about your first M, that is really rough, I can't imagine the emotions and dealing on that one.
I think it's an amazing person that can love another so wholly after the previous ordeal you went through. It sounds like you are still in a grieving process for your current W and your M.
I know this is redundant by now but Take little steps to focus on you, show the happy Dragon.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.
