better to love or be loved?

[willbwell]

First time h comes to the house and knocks instead of just coming in. he is separating himself more and more.doesn't look at mail even.
takes the kids to d, and then drops them curbside after. I think surely that must feel sad to kids to watch their dad drive off.to know he doesn't want to be in their home. s17 says nothing. can't believe this doesn't impact him.
s17 says I am weird and ask too many questions( like how is school , how are you feeling) I don't ask him too much about h. s17 is quiet and prefers I not talk to him at all!

I can feel h's disdain for me.