I really appreciate the you did it, move on AND the you messed up, now grow up and deal with it posts! I really do. I know I messed up. And I know it's going to take weeks if not longer to make up that ground again.
I stayed at my girlfriends house last night. I turned off my phone and just enjoyed wine (and whine lol) with her. It was good for me, and got me regrounded.
Guess who just popped by 15 minutes ago to say hi and see how I am?
I didn't utter one word about our R, S or M. I really didn't know what to say, so I pasted a smile on my face and let him lead the conversation, while we had tea.
I do believe he left here a little puzzled. I can't get in trouble if I say nothing right? But I was cheerful.
Interestingly though, he did not refer to his friends place as home, but as "Joe's place." For 54 days it has been "home," and he has been sure to hammer me with that so that I understand our house is no longer home.
I have learned my lesson, I won't let my anxiety get the better of me again. I'm a little bit humbled right now. I will make sure this lesson sticks.
