In and out of fog city

[2ndtimearoundCA]

Reconciliation is definitely not an action, it's not an expectation either, it's a hope; an ultimate goal. But not necessarily at the front of my mind. My expectations are more like if w agrees to have dinner with me I expect w to have dinner with me. Or if were are getting together, I may have some expectations about what the interactions be like. These are difficult to control.

As far as figuring out what works I am thinking about my actions in the moment. How much to touch her, how long to hug goodbye, how to react to things she says or does..