i forgot to say- it's true, the looking at self reflection in a murky pond. what a way better visual of my usual - if you want to find good you do- if you want to find bad - you do.
how i ever could have been buying into it- who knows? maybe it just begins in such a small way- it overcomes you and you're accepting it in such small increments we're not even aware - at all even. AND THEN one day - pow, you realize you've changed in response to it all- or your heart has - or your self-image- and you're feeling mighty like a giant losey - and why???? wtf???
soooo many people out there- soooo , what? unhappy- messed up, whatever. they never manage to just keep it contained , do they. they want to spread the misery around i guess
i'm thinking if we can "see" it, we can work on it- we can avoid it- we can manage it- we can wade thru it, we can overcome it-
we can do it - rite???
feelin in very good company now indeed - here . and seeing light out there at the end of my own "journey" - don't know about anyone else around me, but i'm still afloat (i'm pretty sure)
need to bundle up the fifty thousand lbs of branches i just cut off - and finish topping the gazillion (it seem) rose of sharon trees before they drop more seeds and i have a million more. i love them when they bloom - but geeeez - the seedlings!!!\ thanks girls..
