Well, I'm not going to give you a free pass on your backslide. They happen, and you're going to have to put your big girl pants on now and deal with the fallout.
You're not going to like this, but there is a good chance he apologized because you didn't react, but I'd venture a guess that it rang hollow with you. It did with me. I recognize this path well. He did it to alleviate his guilt.
Let me spell it out for you. You really don't want a broken, guilty man back. He's broken, and you're not doing your part to help matters. You call him to manage YOUR anxiety. You have to find another outlet to do that. You'll never win the war if you continue to make these kind of backslides.
Now you get to see how long it takes to get back the ground you lost today.
Squats sound like a good plan if you want buns of steel. But you should make a list of other things that make YOU happy to occupy your time. If the drywall is what you need to do, go for it.
For the record, I'm glad you didn't slam him. That IS progress. But understand he's not going to see that. Right now he's grading you on the bigger stuff. Bigger stuff with higher stakes.
Pud this goes for you too. You're both old and wise enough to learn from mistakes and be the bigger person. If you really want to get another chance, you're going to have to earn it. The hard way. Restraint is something you can do... You're not impulsive little girls anymore.
Sorry for the spanking. I just want you to succeed. You have to help yourselves.
Be good! :-)
Betsey
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
