Boy, just being dark from W for a little less than a week has been so clarifying and constructive. I have no idea what it's doing for W, but it's helping me a LOT. I can only imagine what a couple of months will do!
Some things I have noticed this past week: 1. My friends (close and casual) have recognized my GALing and 180s. That feels good. I'm doing it for ME, but sometimes you doubt yourself, and it's good confirmation to know that it's working.
2. GALing is becoming much easier - I'm enjoying working out, I have family coming up this weekend, went out last night, have Monday Night Football at a friends house scheduled, S10's football season is going strong. I am enjoying getting into cooking again, trying new recipes, etc, have been getting stuff fixed around the house that I've been meaning to do for weeks.
3. My relationship with God has been horrible the past few months but it has re-surged in awesome ways. Regardless what happens with W - that will NOT be the case ever again.
4. What a short time-span it has been since my first post; less than a month right now, but feels like a year! Patience.
5. On Tuesday, Fly wrote me a good note challenging me to quit being so wishy washy, and I spent a good bit of time thinking about it, and it has renewed my resolve. I was sort of disgusted by how I was pandering, and I would imagine it wouldn't be attractive to W either. Also, I say W is confused, but my actions have been confusing as well. I feel much better about the future and who I want to be.
