GM, My heartfelt condolences to you and your family. I know your mom had been ill for quite some time. I am very glad that you and your family were there w/her to surround her w/love as she crossed over. GM, you mother may be gone, but she is not forgotten and she is still here in your heart and soul. She will be watching over you and your family for many years to come.
May you find some peace and comfort in knowing that she lived a full and wonderful life and raised a wonderful daughter and was there for her family through thick and thin.
Please make sure your dad is okay and has someone there w/him for the new few weeks. It's a terrible loss for him and he may feel a bit lost w/her presence not in the home.
Again, I am very, very sorry.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.