That said, I don't see me ever getting married again. It seems so meaningless when one person can just walk away on a whim without making any effort to resolve things.
I feel exactly the same way. H is my love and if that's gone,and he doesn't wish to grow and change with me, then I don't wish to be married to someone else.
I know there will be some who think this is naive of us, but I have a colleague who went through what we are going through now. He still doesn't have any answers more than 10 years on and it still pains him. He's had a girlfriend for years who would like nothing more than to get married, but he's made it clear he is not willing to risk the pain again.
I also don't buy into the whole "more fish in the sea." I already fished that sea and caught my trophy fish. (Okay, it's kind of a terrible metaphor.) I don't believe there are simply more trophy fish waiting to be caught. I also don't see how I would ever be able to give myself over to someone again. Much like my colleague, I never knew it was possible to feel this much pain. Who would willingly subject themselves to it again?
