She left without warning, but the signs were there. I knew something was wrong in April. She was distant and brooding. There were glimmers but I knew she was mad. Fast forward. She wants a divorce. I get to see my daughter without too much headache. I see mental health and find this forum. I am not optimistic and she has proclaimed to everyone she wants divorce. All I care for is my child. I'm talking to a coach and will apply what I am learning, if only to regain self-respect from weeks of doing all the wrong things. I know I tried my best and it was her that destroyed our family. I have read so many similar situations here, but I get no hope from them. She is gone and I won't facilitate her desires. She is a new and ugly person, not the wife I know. The hell she has caused throughout my family is unspeakable. I can't see her reintegrating. The wound is too deep. I would be willing to go back, but only for the child. She claims to be a Godly woman and a church-goer. I don't know who she's fooling. I know I've made mistakes as she gleeful pointed them out ad nauseum. Old garbage she never put in the dumpster. Of the 4 years of marriage, 2 of them were pure hell in her mind. Why she had IVF to make our child is beyond me, though her motives are mostly selfish. As I said before, I am giving this system a try. I know she has painted me in such a negative way, any good I do is a shock. Example, I brought her a large box of diapers which caused a confused expression on her face. It gave me satisfaction to smile and then walk away. In this whole fiasco, I've struggled to understand her point of view. In the 2 years of her "hell", she never hinted at leaving. Things seemed normal. There were a couple of verbal fights, nothing too serious, but we always kissed good night and never dwelled on it. My shrink says she had an agenda regarding having a baby, then dump me. Perhaps. The fact we have no assets together makes things easier, says my lawyer. The horrible shame of it all, thats what bugs me. A new child coming into a broken home. A catholic woman who attends church regularly who does even apply the Word. Its all irrelevant now. Going forward, I'll use my new skills to try to salvage my marriage. Wish me luck.
