"my fear is not in losing him anymore...it is losing my role as a full time mom/ less time with my boys"
I feel EXACTLY the same way right now. I'm kind of upset that I'm missing a portion of my only child's only childhood. She is off in her own selfishness but D3.5 has to be with her for less then 50% of it.
I was talking with my c tonight and I told her that it's amazing looking back to the beginning of my second journal- all those events that seemed so monumental at the time - just seem so blah blah blah now.
Nights of crying, shaking in shock, hyperventilating - she did that to me. The cuts are so deep that right now ......it's just kinda getting a little old.
It's like spring has sprung in my head right now. I love my wife but I don't need my wife. It's time to stop wasting days, weeks, months and time to live for us...
I've come a hell of a long way in nine months.....if the fog lasts for 2years like many suggest, at my current trajectory I'll be a pretty good catch - I hope she is fishing
You've stopped being a doormat - I like it....you go girl!!!
ME 38 W 37 T18 M5 D3 BD 1/7/13 PA Conf 2/11/13- Ongoing 2nd simultaneous affair Confirmed 4/19/13 W gets APT and begins transition out 5/29/13 First mediation appt 12/19/13
