I am getting to the point where I am becoming happy with myself. I never thought I would get there. One thing that helped was just to let go of thinking about her, she is done. Its unfortunate that she will not get to share and grow with my new found health and happiness.
Your comment about her behavior makes sense. But really if she is struggling why wont she want to try again, there are so many benefits for us to be a happy complete family.
DB have certainly helped me personally. Its always in the back of my mind if I should ask .. Do you want to try again? cant you see how awesome I have become? At least try for the sake of the children, they love us both so much. It hurts me, as it must hurt her to see them cry when I leave. That one of the hardest parts of this journey.
Time will tell how this will all play out. Ether way I am beginning to feel that I will be ok no matter what happens.
H 37 WAW 32 S 4 (Autistic) S 2 Together 11 years Married 6 Bombshell Dec 1 2012 House sold, flying solo June 1 2013.
